She cares.

Just that she played. Played down the concern with humour. Distracted someone away from her already off-guarded heart.

The desire to be understood & the fear of being understood at the same time. Well, they both made her the unexpressive person she is now.

All she want of him is an assurance.
An assurance that perhaps to him, she’s not just about the same as compared to any other beings. She’s a unique individual. Grand opposite of those very typical 18-19 yr old telling the world how the cutest guy in her college ask her out, how she dressed for the date, and of course, how elated to be out with lallalala.

Good grief.

She just wants to take care of him.
& Perhaps when he’s sick & tired from clowning. Sore from smiling. He can turn around find her there.

But because of what he thinks.

She is afraid.