I thought my right kidney is failing me.
From Friday til now I kept having this recurring stab of pain at my lower right back. It’s throbbing so badly there’s no position I’ll feel comfortable in at all. Yes even when I lie down.
In the midst of pain & nausea from the pain, the paranoid in me kinda acts up again & the thought of kidney failure hits me. I admit being a paranoid, but in case u’re thinking that I’m being too paranoid, let me tell u why I let the thought of kidney failure haunt me. My family had a history of kidney failure. If that’s not freaky enough, my mum’s cousin & my granddad died from kidney failure, & my mum had kidney inflammation when she was 11.
How’s that?
I’m losing my sleep cuz I couldn’t find a sleeping position that can halt the throbbing in my back. I can pop up to 8 panadols per day but they worked like candies. Someone gotta just knock me out in order to stop the pain.
Almost instantly, I regretted having instant noodle for breakfast again this morning. In fact, I love instant noodle so much I could eat it for every breakfast. I always knew it’s a suicide but I’m stubborn. I don’t usually care as long as I like it & that’s the way I always am. Serve me right if something really happens to me, but thank goodness some researches on kidney failure shows that I’m actually kinda fine. Other than pain in the lower back, I don’t see the rest of the warning signs of kidney failure on me.
Phew.
Xiao Ser says I strained my back, which I highly believe so (& I highly want to believe so). She had recurring back problems & the way she described her pain was somewhat similar to the kinda pain I’m experiencing.
Gawd.
I never know that back problems can feel so lethal. I used to accompany Xiao ser to visit her sinseh when her back acts up but other then feeling sorry for her, I never once could understand the agony she’s going through & her willingness to spend that amount of money. It’s like 45bucks per treatment mind u!
Now I know.
The agony is unexplainable unless u’re a victim of it urself.
Pray my therapy at the sinseh's works.
I’m active.
I drink lotsa water.
I had more than enough sleep everyday.
I’m in the pink of health.
I couldn’t be down with kidney failure, silly me!
I wouldn’t have kidney failure.
& I mustn’t.
From Friday til now I kept having this recurring stab of pain at my lower right back. It’s throbbing so badly there’s no position I’ll feel comfortable in at all. Yes even when I lie down.
In the midst of pain & nausea from the pain, the paranoid in me kinda acts up again & the thought of kidney failure hits me. I admit being a paranoid, but in case u’re thinking that I’m being too paranoid, let me tell u why I let the thought of kidney failure haunt me. My family had a history of kidney failure. If that’s not freaky enough, my mum’s cousin & my granddad died from kidney failure, & my mum had kidney inflammation when she was 11.
How’s that?
I’m losing my sleep cuz I couldn’t find a sleeping position that can halt the throbbing in my back. I can pop up to 8 panadols per day but they worked like candies. Someone gotta just knock me out in order to stop the pain.
Almost instantly, I regretted having instant noodle for breakfast again this morning. In fact, I love instant noodle so much I could eat it for every breakfast. I always knew it’s a suicide but I’m stubborn. I don’t usually care as long as I like it & that’s the way I always am. Serve me right if something really happens to me, but thank goodness some researches on kidney failure shows that I’m actually kinda fine. Other than pain in the lower back, I don’t see the rest of the warning signs of kidney failure on me.
Phew.
Xiao Ser says I strained my back, which I highly believe so (& I highly want to believe so). She had recurring back problems & the way she described her pain was somewhat similar to the kinda pain I’m experiencing.
Gawd.
I never know that back problems can feel so lethal. I used to accompany Xiao ser to visit her sinseh when her back acts up but other then feeling sorry for her, I never once could understand the agony she’s going through & her willingness to spend that amount of money. It’s like 45bucks per treatment mind u!
Now I know.
The agony is unexplainable unless u’re a victim of it urself.
Pray my therapy at the sinseh's works.
I’m active.
I drink lotsa water.
I had more than enough sleep everyday.
I’m in the pink of health.
I couldn’t be down with kidney failure, silly me!
I wouldn’t have kidney failure.
& I mustn’t.
posted by Angie | Monday, December 05, 2005
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