I’m a good gurl this week.

No supper, in fact no meals after 8pm; Nope, no instant noodles at all. I ran at the reservoir on my stay home days now & down large quantity of water daily very comparable to our army friends. I felt so much more in the pink cutting on MSG. All these are not just for the sake of weight loss anymore. Cuz I finally reckoned that by the time I’m thin, fat will probably be in.


Do u dream anymore?

At the age of twenty, anyone could see that I’m obviously not achieving anything. All I’m armed with is this stupid O levels cert, & the furthest it can bring me is to this stupid sales assistance position in some damned shop; If u know what I’m saying.

Of course, I’m as anxious as anyone about my future but I allow myself to be in sync always with my thoughts. I’ll only go ahead to pursue my ambition if I think it’ll definitely work for me, & not go for some other ambitions that’ll prolly doesn’t work out so well for myself.

The grass is always greener on the other side.
Recalling my poly days when I’m still doing Info Tech, I’m always envious of my netball buddies doing business. I hated java, hated every single lab session that requires me to dismantle any machines. Tonnes of presentations sound so much better than boring computer parts back then, & donning formal often sounds like a pretty fun idea.
Anything la, just anything other than IT.

The glamour of business doesn’t seem so prominent anymore when I realize my business friends are struggling too. Xiao Ser literally got so tormented by her marketing projects she’s always a worn out (& ghostly LOLS!! psssst xiao ser) sight, & she’ll only recovered to her bubbly self after all her deadlines.

Never think that people who graduate with a tertiary cert are just lucky that they got into an easier course. They have their own horror stories to tell too, just that they don’t grumble as much as u do. If there is really such a deal as the easiest course to graduate with a cert, everyone might as well apply for the same course to be in the safe zone right?
So I conclude there’s no easier course, only lazier people.

I dare say Info Tech sucks & I’ll prolly struggle less in fashion design, but never had I pictured my journey in pursuing design to be a smooth sailing one. Oh, & it doesn’t open many doors to wide array of jobs too.

Aiya, nevermind… If I fail my course I just pay money & go take design lor…

The design industry is not as beautiful & fairytale-ish as many people had thought can? There might be horror stories u haven’t heard of yet? If it’s so easy to succeed in design, people apply at school of engineering or school of applied science for fuck?

So right now I need to be super ready for design & super sure that I’ll like it in the industry before I make my decision. People please don’t rush me into it. If I’m lucky to be one of the few successful ones, I’ll have my own shop; if not maybe 10 years down the road u’ll still see me stuck in the rut of 77th. Hur.
Who knows? Pui. Touch wood.

I’m building up the anticipation now. By then I’ll know that I’m a better student.