Look at me

Sometimes
è last thing I wanted last always comes in first
But è first thing I wanted never comes
Perhaps I shouldn’t be pondering at all

I should just walk away & not look back
Even if it means secretly falling apart when u turned ur back
Even if it cuts inside to let go
At least
For è very least
I know I can seek console
Since I’m no longer è foolishly awaiting soul
Who’s constantly falling into traps where I always knew

I wish
But I couldn’t
I’m defeated by fate
Had no choice in è eye of destiny
Memories of u just overran
Forcing me to be always on è run
From è sight of u

I’m sick & I’m tired
Of being manipulated
By è feeling I'm feeling now
I’m weary of being patronizing
Towards uncertainties

I frightened myself
For living my life like a record
Played over & over again
I destroyed myself
For living my life like a candle
With my defenses being melted with ur smile
I’ll then dissipate & end up in nothing

If I could make u turn ur head
To look at me
If I could make u see
The broken hearted party is no one else but me
Maybe we will be

If I could cast a spell & make u sleep
Sneak by u when u’re slumbering deep
I’ll wake u up & be è 1st thing u see
U’ll then realize u feel for me