I must admit I'm really bored at home without a job; but no, I'm not gonna find another anymore. I've been slogging for è past 1 year & I'm exhausted. Thanx to that, I finally realised that staying at home doing nothing is after all a blessing :)

Started working from last year's march, I'm rather glad to clinch a job relevant to something I enjoyed at 1st. It is when July comes when I suddenly woke up & sense that something is amiss; Everyone of my age is going to school & yet I am slogging away. It would be more comforting if my goal is to earn money; but no, I worked because I don't want to feel like a good-for-nothing sitting at home expecting my parents to feed me for one year (so I'm sorta forced to work). è working world is tough; until now I'm still baffled by è reason why Shi Hui gave up è chance to study just like that.

Relative's support? What support? All they do is gossip behind ur back (or maybe laugh at how stupid I am). Thankfully I have a job or è gossips would come around worst. I really felt embarrassing for them when those gossips actually came to my ears. Did I mention I hate backstabbers? Take a look at their own children pls; Aren't some of them ITE graduates? Who is that girl who took 7 years to complete secondary sch may I know? Not forgetting that there's someone who took drugs, stole money, slept around with unknown men & got herself pregnant. If I were to choose to gossip & despise them, I would have more valid reasons to do so. Although those all are bygones but this doesn't give them è passport to laugh at others now. Go rinse their filthy mouth with Detol if they are so bloody free. Blame it on their luck that their cutting words have no effect on me, I am not that weak, they can't kill me that way. Happy for me that I've made it this time round eh? Save their fwarking hypocrisy; Aren't they hoping that I'll fail again so I'll be lousier then their trashy children?

I know I'm very rude to make such remarks on my elderly but think again; do they deserve my respect? If not for my parents I would love to tell them that they are a fwarking bunch of assholes... My parents can't really blame me whenever I showed a pissed off face whenever those hypocritical aunties speaks to me cos I know what they do not know. Thank God I only have to meet them once a year :P

That one thing that hurts me is that my mum sometimes tramples on my dignity too. Why can't she spare a thought for how I feel? She makes me feel as if I like to get myself in such deep shit. Mum is a nice woman but being easily brain washed by others is her great mistake. I'm still dissapointed until now...